In My Dreams

In our dreams, whatever happens there, are there for certain reasons. They  may be what we've been thinking of too much for a long time, or signs of how we've been feeling, and the like. Dreams are also rarely remembered by the person, but some dreams are actually still present in our minds once we wake up. May not be the whole dream, but some parts of it we remember.

Just this morning, I actually had one of those dreams again (yes, another dream.) I've been having a lot of dreams for the past months, dreams that are not really nice or not healthy for me. It's one of those dreams that I had because of how I've been feeling for a long time now.

I really can't remember the whole dream, but what happened there as I remember was, we were back at home. I was with my family, and we were at the living room. Then a moment later, something was trying to force itself to enter the front door, and for some reason we have an idea what it was. I was trying to lead the family on what we should do, on how to prevent it from going inside the house. The first try of blocking the door was successful, but at some point, it tried to enter the front door again, but that time I was the only one on the door blocking the way. When it was inside the house already, I don't really know what happened but it felt like it went inside me, and after that the dream kind of changed. It's like a different story all of a sudden.

What happened next was different. I felt like I was powerful, and I was in a battle with someone I don't know. I was throwing stuff at whoever he is, and at some point, I got a puppy, and saw all our other dogs before. :( I miss them.

Anyway, it's not as heavy as my other dreams before, but still I had it. So of course, I researched for the meaning, and here's what I got (though I don't know if it's accurate.)

You are regretting the loss of most of your acquiantances. This may be due to real loss or merely from isolation and loneliness.

I'm not sure if this is the real meaning for the dream, but it actually has a point. It's actually what I've been feeling for a long time now. Maybe, I'll have more of these kinds of dreams in the next days, as I am still not really in my best self. I'm still in a battle with my own life, and I'm really having a hard time already. Whatever I do, something bad always happens. Nothing right's happening for me.