This morning has to be one of those "I wish I never felt this way, ever.." mornings. I haven't really been feeling well for a long time already, but this morning just feels different compared to the other mornings.
I haven't really spoken to any of my friends since yesterday. I just want to know what can happen if I just stop and let things happen the other way. I just want to know how it feels when one is remembered for something good, and not remembered because they need something. I want to know how it feels to be on someone's mind, to be missed, and to be spoken to first. I just want to stop feeling this way. It's like this for me everyday. I'm getting tired of feeling like this, but most of the time I just can't help but fall down, again.. And again.. And again..
Everyday, I've been telling myself "I'll be okay.. I can do this.. Please, let me do this.." And I always end up going the other way. Maybe I should just stop forcing myself through things, and just let them happen by themselves. I don't know..
I am not happy..
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