Just like a Maze

Have you ever felt like you're unsure about what's happening around you? Unsure, in a way that you don't know what's happening, what concerns you, or even how you feel about certain stuff? You don't know whether to feel happy or not about certain feelings, to think about them or just let them pass?

For some reason, it hit me today. I've been in a stage for the past months, trying to find that happiness inside me, trying to feel better with everything that's happening. And, let me tell you, it's not that easy, considering that I'm always home, same thing everyday. Still no work, not being able to meet new people (because it's not that easy, even though people say it is.) I just find it awkward to approach someone out of the blue.

Anyway, I just thought of writing this, so I could let it out. I'm not really sure who I can tell this, because I don't really know who I can still trust. Err.. I just need to let this out because it kind of confuses me, with how I should feel: if what I'm feeling is true, or it's just trying to help mend the wound, take away all the pain.

The thing is, sometimes I feel like I like this something, but when I think about it, when I try to analyze things, I always end up telling myself "That's nothing. Your heart's just playing with you." And, I'm not really sure about this feeling, since I've been away for so long already. Sometimes I feel like I'm in a cave, always at home, rarely goes out. Whenever I go out, I'm not that familiar with the stuff around me. But anyway, when I think about it, it kind of gives me this happy but confusing feeling. I just wanna know, what else can I do because I don't want to be confused with anything anymore. Whenever I'm in this stage, I just end up hurting myself, or someone else. But when I'm sure, it's always not the right time.

I just want to know, how it feels to be alive.. Again.

Btw, I've been taking lots of pictures and been editing them as well. Come and visit my site, and check out my photos. :) Click here or on the image below. :)