Family Comes First

So I was going through some of our old pictures, trying to look for pictures I can edit since I ran out of pictures (I don't know what else to take here.) Well, going through the pictures made me cry a little, for the reasons that I wish I could go back in those times and have those fun times again. Specifically, these pictures are the times we got to go out and have fun as a whole family.  We don't get to do that anymore, since we're not staying in the same place.

The picture on the left is the picture of our family, taken in different times. There are actually more pictures of us, I just couldn't find the others right now, and I guess these are the best pictures we have together. I miss how we are able to do things together, like we usually go out to have dinner, or those times after dinner we go around the mall just to relax for a bit, or look for dessert. The last picture actually was our last visit in the Philippines, after being separated for some months we were reunited again, but had to be separated again after several weeks. I'm really looking forward to the day when all of us will be complete here, together again. I'm looking forward to having those dinner outs again, or maybe we can do something different now, like maybe picnic, or go mountain hiking, snowboarding on winter (?), anything different, something we weren't able to do before.

The picture here seen here is me with my siblings, also taken in different times. Right now, I'm in the same house with my sister and my younger brother, which makes me miss my two older brothers. It really never felt like this before, considering we used to fight a lot back when we were kids, but I guess with time, everything changes. As we grew up together, we just got closer and closer, and I'm actually proud to say that I'm close to my siblings. I feel sad for those who are not really that close to their family, and would rather spend time with their friends or would rather be away. I miss the times we go out, just us, to watch a movie or just to spend some time together. I miss the times when all of us are in the same room, and we talk about just anything. I miss the times when you just wanna talk to someone, need help or anything, and they will always be there for you. They may say words that may hurt you, but in the end, you will realize how much they care for you. I miss the times that we just bond and laugh about anything, which reminds me of our last days in the Philippines before we left again.

I'm actually happy that I got to talk to my two older brothers about how I'm feeling, or about the things I've been keeping to myself for a long time now. I felt better that I got to talk to them, and I guess I really needed that too, to be more open to them, because like what they always tell me, in the end, your family will always be there for you. And, like what my older brother said, "Arellano ka!! :)" There may be new problems, or old problems that I'm facing, but just remembering what they told me, just knowing that I have them by my side, helps me to feel A WHOLE LOT BETTER. Right now, I guess what's making me sad is more of missing them, wishing that they're here with us too.