Word of the Day

This day was one of those days that I wish I could just forget, but I can't for certain reasons.

Whenever I start a day, for the past months that I have been here, I always turn on the laptop, and do the usual: go to the different social networking sites, and turn on my IM. I'm usually excited on doing this, as it connects me with my friends back home. But, as  the months passed by, little by little, things have started changing, and not in a good way.

I'm the kind of person who really starts a conversation with someone, especially when I miss that someone. I wasn't really like this before, I never started any conversation this much.

So as the months passed by, little by little, I started losing connection with the people I usually talk to back at home: with my bestfriend, friends, buddies, bros, sisters, whatever I want to call them. And most especially, the person I love most.

I never knew, that long distance can affect friendships as well. I thought, it will be hard with relationships only, but no. It's really hard talking with people over to the other end of the world, because of time difference. When they're busy with work, I'm at home doing nothing. By the time I wake up, they're home and I'm preparing for work. There's really no time with talking to each other, even on weekends. By the time I arrive home on a Friday, they're waking up on a Saturday morning, and by the time they're really up, I'm already about to retire.

This whole day, even if I was at work, got me thinking: What happened? Where did I go wrong? Am I the problem or what?

This whole day, wasn't really a good one, with work, relationships, and myself.

Then, while I was surfing my Tumblr account, I saw this picture:

It suddenly hit me. For the past days, things have been hitting me. Whatever I do, wherever I go, something always reminds me of something, and it hurts as hell.


I'm very vulnerable right now. I'm not sure of what I want, or what I need to do. I feel very weak. I just wish, there's something I could do, especially with that certain thing.


I'll be happy again.. One day..