I wish I have an iPod that can detect the mood of the one listening and play songs appropriate to the mood.
Just something I thought of, because while I was listening to my iPod earlier, there were 6 songs that played that played consecutively on shuffle, that kind of matched how I feel right now.
1. After All - Peter Cetera & Cher
2. Hands on Deck - Waking Ashland
3. For You - Kenny Lattimore
4. Not Like The Movies - Katy Perry
5. Love Will Lead You Back - Taylor Dayne
6. Kwarto - Sugarfree
These past months have been really hard for me, and these past weeks I've been doing a lot of thinking about everything that's happening. All I can say is, I'm still not sure for what reasons these are happening. Sometimes, I'm not even sure with how I really feel.
Looking back, with everything that has happened, sometimes I can't help but think, "Maybe this is what I'm good at. I'm good at pushing people away. Maybe.. Just maybe.."
It just sucks, that you try your best to be there, and you just end up getting pushed away. You end up getting hurt. You end up alone.
Things are just not meant to be.
Sometimes, I just wanna say "I'm tired.." but I don't know why I just can't.
What I need right now, is a friend. A real friend. Someone who will be there, even without saying anything. Just be there, sit beside me, give me company. Someone who understands how I feel, and will be there when I need someone, without me asking. Someone.
I'm not happy. My life sucks. I'm miserable.
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